In just a couple of weeks, the American Thanksgiving holiday will be here. This post is about giving Thanks for what I have… and to kick my Negative Nancy into a Sunshine Sally.
I know how lucky I am to be living in Europe. The ultimate trip. Living abroad! I am Thankful I do not just dream about going somewhere, I actually have! Now, I just have to deal with the repercussions of the big move!
I am thankful for this Blog! It is a place where I can come to say anything. This is my therapists couch and my clay on a wheel. The end product may end up looking like my second grade clay bowl, but it is mine. and I love it!
I noticed today, as I talked with my two closest friends, I was being overly critical, judgmental, and negative. It happens often when I feel myself getting depressed. It is the kind of expat depression that doesn’t last long, but can feel like an eternity at the time.
Expat Blues before a holiday or at anytime is not out the norm. I just Googled “expat depression” and a slew of sites popped up, But first as I was typing in my search words it offered more… expat depression China, Germany, and so on.
I have heard of Beijing Blues, and having a Shanglow day in Shanghai. I would add Balkan Blues or Serbian Sadness. It happens and you just have to find your way out of the jungle and move on, knowing that you do love this place, just not all the time.
I am Thankful that the internet lets us commiserate. Knowing you are not alone is comforting.
I am Thankful that I get to work in Nature! For numerous reasons the great out doors is home. When I am in the fields, I don’t feel judged. I am able to just be me, breathe the fresh air and enjoy God’s creation. Usually, I am getting a great workout at the same time.
Incidentally, getting out of the house and working out are the too many things that kick expat depression in the rear. I am Thankful that I get to do that often!
It is when I come back to town, I feel like an alien. I feel that I just don’t fit in here. And as I just read in Sunny Sanguinity, ” I don’t always want to be different. But I want to be me.”
I don’t always mind being that stranger, sometimes I relish it. I am Thankful that being different isn’t always bad.
I am Thankful for the internet! I can message people online and skype! Hallelujah! I need to do that!
I am Thankful for my Family. All of them! I am a lucky girl to have so many loved ones.
I am Thankful for Friends! I love you all! Thanks for being there for me.
Ok, I need to go back to bed… T minus three hours till I get up… I am Thankful Munchkin goes to preschool!
I am Thankful that I get to go cuddle with my hubby and little one in a King size bed!
I am Thankful that writing this post lifted my spirits and I feel at peace! See, being Thankful helps!!!!!!