I mentioned in my last post we have a new (used) toy on the farm, our Italian tiller. I will call this “toy” Pecky because it expands and retracts like a pecker. And because there is a rooster on the sticker.
Pecky the tiller is a dynamo, it chews up the ground like cookie monster does cookies. The tilling arm extends until the sensor pushes it back from a tree like we would step to the side to avoid a pole in our path. This machines work hard so we don’t have to hoe the field all up to stop the weeds. Like the rest of us it isn’t perfect. If the machine is tilling without guidance from a human, it can easily chew up baby trees because the sensor is only going to notice the big ones.
Like most farm machines, it is big, and heavy. It has to be. This makes it hard for little people like me to control it. You need a strong arm. Mine is not that strong.
Another downfall of the machine is the jostled while not in use, or it isn’t on level ground, the tilling teeth will slowly extend. *Spoiler alert* Our fields aren’t all that flat, so my job was very difficult.
I learned this all the hard way on the first day. I was the one sitting on the back of the tractor holding our little work
horse rooster by the reins.
This is where the lessons began, but they didn’t end there.
As I was struggling with Pecky, I began to explain the problems I was having to the Muz. I guess he thought I was just being lazy or I just didn’t know what I was talking about, because he didn’t believe me.
How could his wonderful new toy be extending on its own, Of course it wouldn’t. I had to be the operator. His mule like wit made me want to quit, but this is my land too. Quitting isn’t much of an option for me. I like to see a job completed.
I worked on noticing one issue after another and tried to tell the Muz, but he wasn’t hearing it. I started to hate the machine by the end of that day.
The next day we were at it again and again he didn’t believe me. At the end of the day he wanted to go to a field of seedlings, and take the sensor off. That means it would be all my arm strength in pulling the tiller to keep the baby seedlings safe as Pecky rolled by with an insatiable appetite.
My arms were both sore and tired. I knew that I wasn’t capable of keeping our new baby trees from the spiraling teeth, so I refused to do it. He would have to drive the tractor and pull the rope himself.
After one row he stopped, he wanted to know if I was really going to make him plow an acre of our seedling sour cherries himself. I prayed for wisdom and the right words as I walked down the field to speak with him. Speaking simply and calmly, I told him, I wasn’t strong enough, I just couldn’t do it.
He pressed on and tilled up the field as I walked around removing large stones from the field that would harm Pecky’s teeth.
I was relieved to go home at the end of the day, and an even better surprise awaited me. We would have no baby sitter the next day as Baba had to go out of town. I was relieved that the Muz and Papa had to be the tilling team. I knew by the end of the next day, the Muz would see I was right. Thankfully he did. He admitted it immediately upon his return home the following evening.
Even after he worked out some of the bugs he would still complain about how sore his arm and hand were from pulling on Pecky’s cord to make it retract all day. All I could say was, “I told you!”
I am not writing this for him to read and see the” I told you so” thing. I am writing this for me.
Experiences like these are good for all of us. They are painful to go through. But I learned several lessons. Some were reruns or reminders of truths previously learned.
1. Sometimes no matter how much you explain something, a person must learn by experiencing it themselves.
2. We need to be patient with our loved ones.
3. Quitting may not be a bad thing sometimes.
4. Trust yourself. Only you know how strong you are. Don’t let others tell you that you are strong enough when you know you aren’t. And don’t let them stop you when you are!
5. Tomorrow is a new day, with more to learn.
6. Perspective is everything. Sometimes getting a new one is the only option.
1. Don’t be too cocky, no one is perfect.
2. If we get too shaken up sometimes we bare our teeth.
3. Gravity can get to us all. We just need to know we can pull ourselves back up, even if it takes a little time and lots of effort.
4. Be sensitive to the big ones and the little ones.
5. Get rid of the weeds in your life. Weeds consume the life-giving water and nutrients. Without them you to grow stronger and bare more fruit.